Episode: s06e25: Aliyah
Song Fic: In My Darkest Hour by Megadeath
Thoughts of death

In My Darkest Hour

Hadar: Director Vance. Director David will see you shortly. He’s anxious to speak with you.
Vance: As am I.
Hadar: Officer David. It’s been far too long.
Ziva: Thank you for coming.
Hadar: There’s no reason to thank me. My visit has nothing to do with you. Ziva. Always full of fire. Shall I introduce myself? Officer Amit Hadar, Special Agent Gibbs. Special Agent DiNozzo. Shalom.
Group: Shalom.
Hadar: Agent DiNozzo, please, ride with me. I insist. It will allow us a chance to get to know one another.
Gibbs: I am going to see him again, right, Leon?
Vance: Officer Hadar will not harm him. Only two people have the authority to do that. Your father is one.
Gibbs: Second?
Ziva: Me.

In my hour of need
Ha, no, you’re not there
And though I reached out for you
Wouldn’t lend a hand
Through the darkest hour
Your grace did not shine on me

Eli: Agent DiNozzo my sincere apologies for your wait.
Tony: That’s okay. I dig hanging out in concrete bunkers. Especially after 12-hour plane rides in cramped quarters.
Eli: Your sarcasm is noted.
Tony: So’s your shirt. Nice style. What is it? Zegna? Cavalli? You got good taste.
Eli: I’m not certain how my apparel applies to your visit.
Tony: And I am not certain how you can classify my visit as a visit.
Eli: All right.
Tony: Just so we understand, this is what I do for a living. I interrogate people all day long. So, I know all the tricks of the trade. And nothing that you do is going to intimidate me.
Eli: Interrogate? This is an Assembly Room. It’s a place for mutual discussion. You have yet to see our Interrogation Room. But if you continue with childish arrogance, I promise that you will.

Feels so cold
Very cold, no one cares for me
Did you ever think I’d get lonely?
Did you ever think that I needed love?
Did you ever think to stop thinking?
You’re the only one that I’m thinking of
You’ll never know how hard I tried
To find my space and satisfy you too

Vance: How many times did I tell DiNozzo to leave his smart-ass attitude back in DC?
Gibbs: You should have checked his bags.
Vance: I thought you said your boy was up for this.
Gibbs: You’re the one who threw him to the wolves, Leon. Let him fight his own way.
Vance: You call this a fight? He’d better start showing me something.
Gibbs: Taking one for the team? He already has.

Things will be better (Better, better)
When I’m dead and gone
Don’t try to understand
Knowing you, I’m probably wrong

Eli: No, Agent DiNozzo, what you need to understand is that I am very aware of who you are. Your achievements and your misjudgments.
Tony: Okay. Stop right there. If this is about my Twitter page, I just want to clarify. I had a couple of cocktails, and, what can I say? Sometimes I get a little chatty.
Eli: Do you know who I am?
Tony: You’re the director of Mossad. And Ziva’s father. Although I’m not sure which one’s asking the questions. Sometimes it is hard to separate. And it appears that you have had difficulty separating your work from your emotions, as well.
Eli: You believed Officer Rivkin was bad?
Tony: He killed an American agent.
Eli: An accident. Unlike his death, which was intentional.

But, oh, how I lived my life for you
‘Til you turned away
Now, as I die for you
My flesh still crawls as I breathe your name
All these years, I thought I was wrong
Now I know it was you
Raise your head
Raise your face, your eyes, tell me who you think you are

Eli: You went there to confront him, to provoke him. And once again, you blurred the lines, Agent DiNozzo, between your professional duty and your personal desires. You wanted Rivkin out of my daughter’s life, so you killed him. Isn’t that the truth, Agent DiNoo?
Tony: It’s like I told your director. I went to Officer David’s apartment, at which time Officer Rivkin attacked me. It was kill or be killed.
Eli: If that were true, my friend, you would be dead.

I walk, I walk alone
To the promised land
There’s a better place for me
But it’s far, far away
Everlasting life for me
In a perfect world
But I gotta die first
Please, God, send me on my way

Tony: I had no choice.
Ziva: That’s a lie.
Tony: Why would I lie to you, Ziva?
Ziva: To save your worthless ass.
Tony: From who? Vance? Mossad?
Ziva: You jeopardized your entire career, and for what?
Tony: For you. He was playing you, Ziva.
Ziva: For some reason, you felt it was your job to protect me?
Tony: I did what I had to do.
Ziva: You killed him.
Tony: If I hadn’t, you’d be having this conversation with him. But maybe that’s the way you’d prefer it.
Ziva: Perhaps I would!
Tony: Okay, why don’t you just get this out. You want to take a punch, take a swing? Get it out of your system! Go ahead, do it!
Ziva: Be careful, Tony, because, much like Michael, I only need one.
Tony: And that’s what you’re really angry about, isn’t it? That’s what’s bothering you. It’s not that he’s dead. It’s that your Mossad boyfriend got his ass kicked by a chump like me.
Ziva: You took advantage of him.
Tony: He attacked me. What was I supposed
Ziva: You saw a glass table, you pushed him back, you dropped him on it, He was impaled in the side by a shard of glass bloody, gasping for air!
Tony: I guess you read my report.
Ziva: I memorized it! You could have left it at that, you could’ve walked away, but no, you let him up! You put a bullet in his chest!
Tony: You weren’t there.
Ziva: You could’ve put one in his leg!
Tony: You weren’t there.
Ziva: But I should’ve been!
Tony: You loved him.
Ziva: I guess I’ll never know.

I walk, I walk alone
To the promised land
There’s a better place for me
But it’s far, far away
Everlasting life for me
In a perfect world
But I gotta die first
Please, God, send me on my way